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Addiction:

Recent studies of alcohol and substance abuse have shown us that addictive behavior can take other less recognizable forms. Popular terms like "OCD", "Workaholic", "Control Freak", and "Pervert" are examples. Sexual expression can be wonderful and healthy experience inside the right context. But for many it is a curse;

Are you sexually addicted:

1. Do you go from one relationship to another?

2. Do you feel "The Right" relationship will finally fill all your needs?

3. Do you use sex as an escape?

4. After sexual experience do you feel guilty?

5. Has your pursuit of sex interfered with your relationship to a spouse or potential partner?

6. Do you find you are unable to resist sexual invitations or sexual materials.

7. Have you tried to limit or stop unhealthy sexual behaviors or have you previously sought out help to control your sexual behaviors? Have you wanted to?

8. Have you put yourself, or others, in dangerous situations in pursuit of sex?

9. Do you have trouble completing tasks, focusing, concentrating at work because you are thinking about sex?

10. Do spend time viewing pornography.

11. Do you feel you have lost control of your actions to fulfil your needs for sex?

12. Have ever been arrested for a sexual offense?

If your answer is yes to three or more of these questions, you are encouraged to seek recovery.

Anne Jackson on Battling Porn Addiction

- Check out Anne's Blog Flowerdust

- Parent resources at theporntalk

- The book and website "Dirty Girls: the new porn addicts"

iSerenity: Online noise wall

This website has a selection of ongoing or looped audio of waterfalls, fans, trains, background noise. To be used for relaxation or for those working in noisy distraction filled environments. This is a good tool if you find listening to music too distracting while you work like me. The Flash slide show is less then well done, I would prefer a full screen option and actual videos.

Spirit Of The 80's

If you have not heard about my microblog that features classic spiritual music from the 80's you might want to bookmark/RSS it: SpiritOfThe80s.tumblr.com

1) Hear about weird history from 20 years ago.
2) Non-believers, Skeptics, Undecided, and TO'd at God types, can add an obscure, hard to find, and sometimes brilliant music category to their library.
3) Old School Believers can ruminate and say things like "Yeah those were the days.(Cough)"
4) Earlier Adopter Believers can claim a vast knowledge of the musical period, still be seen as mildly uninterested, and comment on it's irony.
5) The rest of you can just cringe and roll your eyes.

Did I cover everyone?

Today remind yourself: I accept help.

Re:Form

I was asked to share my experience about the re:form conference recently held at my home fellowship Vineyard Boise.

The reform initiative is the result of a vision Pastor Tri Robison set out in a prospectus I received when being invited to help develop the web communications, which have been primarily headed by Centaur Media and Jason Chatraw a journalist recently assigned by donation to serve this venture.

After reading the prospectus I was moved and excited about the magnitude, truth, and bravery, only critical that media plan seemed a little light particularly in the area of broadcast radio. Later Emily Hopping invited me to volunteer and participate.

Re:form challenges the church to re:think it positions on environmentalism, human justice, and calls us to the advent:ure of action.

After leaving as Network Director for Freedom Radio (Edgewater Broadcasting) where my vision was for social justice in radio media recently, many of these issues have been heavy on my heart. I feel we the church could love more, sin less, and dance on the head of the serpent. Consequently, I have personally taken a challenge to start withe me.

I met people from Georgia, California, and Maryland all gathered not to grimly fulfill a solemn agenda, but to simply to learn and become aware. Not that these people were not focused or passionate. It just was not the militant hemp-fest one might expect. The gathering was well managed, well planned, open, and comfortable. Great food, worship, and a great experience. I was honored and privileged to participate.

The number one most important thing entering my head/heart space from the conference was this: It does not matter how poor you are, you do not have to wait to give to others. An example was shared about a church in a third world nation who collected pennies that totaled a $2 offering, afterwords supplies were purchased with this money to create a large vat of soup which was prepared and placed in the middle of the street, orphans and hungry children showed up in droves to receive the meager offering. Honestly as I write this I am homeless, penniless, and jobless (but not Godless.) and previously felt I had to wait to reach out to those in need. I now realize if I will open my heart, and be a vessel for God today, he will open the doors for me. I don't have to wait. $6 will provide a an ecologically sound and efficient cook stove. You know that $6 burger that sounds so good? What if you skipped it once and bought a cook stove for a family in extreme poverty? How about once a month?

The other important items I came away with were the fitting of puzzle pieces, how poor management of resources impacts communities, which in turn cause poverty and in turn create vulnerabilities that are exploited and end in human trafficking and slavery. That this system of brutality, can and is being overcome. I became painfully aware of the direct consequences of our nations voracious appetite for pornography and how that industry is driving trafficking internationally- and at home. As someone who confesses having viewed pornography, I can testify that the "Big lie" is that since it is all virtual or cyber with consenting adults there is no harm done. The truth is there is virtually no such thing as consenting (few if any, in her right mind, are going to pick sex slave as career focus.) and that every click and every dollar spent creates an economy that is fed by pimps and traffickers who prey on children and those made vulnerable by poverty. Sometimes when God instructs us we should just obey, because after we disobey and see what could have been avoided the regret is to grand. I can only hope for grace for the thousand millstones that should hang from my neck. But now I know, and so do you.

Consider become an abolitionist against slavery. Say No to exploitation and Yes to doing something about it.

It occurred to me today that the label "activist" might be the perfect 'front' for Christianity. Brandi Swindell shirks the label preferring 'Christian' and I agree, being marginalized as an opinionated fanatic with an agenda can't be good. But if the shoe fits... her outreach the Stanton Clinic provides help for women in crisis and she just returned from Beijing where she was arrested for praying for the mothers of forced abortion there in communist China during the Olympics. Or my friend Dennis Mansfield who started New Hope a business providing halfway homes for those out of prison. People standing in the gap for others, while reaching back to call others to action. That is what re:form is all about. Rob Morris (President Love146.org) pointed out that the only place in the Bible where God is shocked or surprised is when he looked across the face of the nations and found that no one was available to stand in the gap for justice mercy and humility.

Okay I know your touched, but the cynic in you begs the political questions. (Fair enough, when the most common placard at the Republican Convention were placards emblazoned with "DRILL".) Aren't liberals masquerading as 'reformers' to win votes? Likely. Aren't Conservatives joining in to win votes, likely. But there is no ideology behind love, it damns the bonds of agendas, illuminates the darkened schemes of mice and men, and in it's clarity gifts freedom to the oppressed.

Go ahead reach out to your community, your environment, your world, regardless of party affiliation, I think you will find the voices of partisan politics dip to a duller murmur. Do politics play a part in these issues of humanity? As Scott Sabin (Executive Director Floresta) pointed out; in some cases almost exclusively in some developing nations. While rising above the pettiness seems most often the high road, as pointed out by Jim Jewell (COO Evangelical Environmental Network), everyone I met at the conference struggles with the issues, but are reaching across the isle for the sake of good. Because that is just it- we have to stop waiting for politicians to do what we can do ourselves. Go ahead God made you to love. Reach.

On the subject of addressing political attitudes Peter Illyn (Director Restoring Eden) suggested the extremes; that some feel that mankind is the feted blemish upon this earth, and were we wiped out, nature would be healthy and restored, while other seethe earth as a machine to wait upon abusively until we go to heaven. Then, unexpectedly out of the news of death, sickness, and depravity, Peter focused on the most refreshing message of the week for me, which I leave you with; God's wonder; showing powerpoint slide after slide after slide, of animals, mountains, earth and sky. That was a simple sermon with magnitude and volume. The earth was given to enjoy. To laugh about, to puzzle and delight us, and fill us with awe and wonder. We are the people of this world and God made it good.

(Check out my micro blog for a constant stream of reform type content: reform.tumblr)

The Four Words:

I have mentioned this before but think it is worth repeating: Many people want to understand the 12 Steps and how they work, but get confused by the process. I have broken the steps into 4 easy to remember words for the impatient, in a hurry, and forgetful; Okay for myself, but I am willing to share:

Truth : Without it you are in denial, and you can trust no one, even yourself. Hard core addicts and slightly neurotic alike are plagued with subtle lies, distortions, and compromises. Muster the courage to see the big picture about you- no matter how painful. You cannot repaint your house in the dark. It might hurt but it will be no worse then the pain you have been avoiding so far.

Trust : Learning to truly believe God has your back, that you can trust yourself, and that you can trust others. This means giving up on broken relationships for good ones, and letting good people be good and come to their own opinions. Pursuit of God, and a friendliness and commitment to yourself.

Surrender : All your fears, failures, hopes, and 'if onlys'. Put them on the chopping block. In giving them away you may be able to attain them. But a deep and true acceptance that your way won't work is needed to change. Give up. Steve Taylor once wrote "Since I gave up Hope I Feel a Lot Better". You cannot do this unless you really trust God.

Care : Caring for yourself and others in equal terms, is the fulcrum where all the great humans have stood. You cannot care for others if you neglect yourself, and you cannot love yourself if you are neglecting others. You might think you take care of others and yourself, but if you are in denial, and lying, and trying to carry it all alone- you won't know what care is. Try the first three and see how your view of care changes.

Quotes:

"I caution you; there is inherent danger in black and white thinking. Failure to see the nuance, the shades of grey, the subtleties that life is abundant with, these places are where truth abides."

anonymous

The Baseball

The Baseball

The talented local filmmaker Brandon Freeman created this stirring short. It is a 10 minute reminder about life, consequences, and choices. (It also stars acquaintance Colin Mansfield.)

quotes:

“It is not so much our friends help that helps us, as the confidence of their help.”

— Epicurus

Plankeye from the Brick Testament. An all Lego Bible.

The emotion cone, an interesting visualization. I think often times I miss the subtleties of emotions and go for the basic, mad, happy, sad labels. So this is a welcomed reminder of some of the other shades of feeling that exist.

via hellomynameisleah

Changing How You Feel

American culture is one of repression (among others). And the Church is sometimes even worse. Most my life I have practiced not expressing my feelings openly. Crying, anger, laughter, excitement even sarcasm are often 'hushed' as children, by parents and authorities. I have even heard from the pulpit that anger is a sin. In turn, it seems now that I am older when I do let these emotions out, I feel overwhelmed, and others are confused, or react to what they see as an 'overreaction' on my part. They just don't know all the feelings going into that one situation. So again it is easier to keep those things to myself, ignore, stifle, or 'repress' those emotions. However as the illustration above depicts: just because I 'feel' powerless over my emotions doesn't mean I am.

There are those that theorize that all emotional illness is sourced in repressed or unexpressed feelings.

Knowing that I can choose to change, or 'shift' how I feel once an emotion is expressed or externalized, gives me more courage to openly respond in a healthy way.

Learning to respond as opposed to reacting, ignoring, or manipulating is new territory for me. Today I feel hurt, scared, and sad. In saying that I immediately want to explain why. However, rationalizing my feelings puts me in my 'head' and becomes another way to avoid pain. And 'plugs' or stops me from 'shifting' to a new emotion if I choose. It also seems that in labeling the source of those feelings, I can take current circumstance or situations and force them as headings over those emotions. Often when looking deeper they were related to other unrelated or distantly related circumstances or situations. But I can only look deeper if I 1) Take the time, 2) Accept those feeling 'as is', no question asked 3) Refrain from passing judgment about their source.

I find that the book of Psalms written by King David to be a meditative discourse on those inward emotions and his process of 'shifting', and a template for positive 'self talk'. (note: 5 chapters a day out of 150 = Psalms read in one month. My Dr.Bronner moment)

Psalm 4 says:
"Be angry and do not sin, meditate on your bed and be still."

in Psalms 5:6 David speaks of evil doers as bloodthirsty men who speak lies, and then in verse 7:
"But as for me, I will come into your house in the multitude of your mercy; In fear of You I will worship toward your holy temple..." So see how he has realized his fear of those persecuting him and then acknowledged that he is no different then them, other then that he seeks God's mercy, and then 'shifts' his fear to the true threat which is God's judgment?